Biracial Identity

I’ve started getting this anxiety about my geography classes, because although I love my teacher, sometimes he can make the most unwanted comments about stuff that really bothers me.

I know that whenever we come back from summer vacations, he’ll always comment on my skin tone, on how darker I look or should look. On how my other colleagues could pass as biracial as well and how they can go darker than me. Like, he starts invalidating my biracial identity just cause we’re southern european so my naturally tanned skin is similar to ppl here who aren’t mixed. And I start getting this anxiety because I hate people commenting on how I don’t really look some type of ethnicity, or if I’m really sure if I am what I am, and I’ve started feeling that if my skin were just a bit darker maybe that could shut up all the people who say that. Like they invalidate the struggles of my family, my own struggles as a mixed kid, and me wanting to connect with my black side and culture, since my white/mediterranean/what have you, grand grandparent and grandparent made their wives loose some connection to their heritage and almost made them be “more white” and internalize racism.
And I hate it, it’s infuriating because they get a summer tan and get to pass as exotic whereas my family and other black or brown families have gone through so much more.

Mixed kids have to go through so much, being fetishized, having their opinion on oppression invalidated or spoken over, getting mocked and questioned if they don't look "enough" like the races they're mixed with, getting put out of their own communities etc. And the people who make them undergo all of this are new type of low.