Weird alien comes to life again

As per usual I disappeared from the face of the Earth, woo woo. The last time I wrote anything here was last year, and 2015 so far has been a bit of a roller coaster. 

As far as it goes, the first 3 months have been harsh on me, especially February. I can't find any answers as to why I got so bad again, I started to have really bad thoughts that I didn't have for almost a year, and it was a bit hard to smile again. Maybe it had something to do with how depressive winter can be? Being like that fucked me up so bad, and I think that part of the feeling so bad was realizing that I hadn't been like that in so long. I just don't know, but I'm much better again, and I have to deal with the fact that sometimes there are going to be slips and I can't be ridiculously happy all the time.

Besides that, lots of good things happened, new people came into my life, I got my braces off, I opened myself to someone and tried to learn how to love and not to fear feeling new things, I spent a week in Italy with great friends (definitely going to post something about my experience!) and got close again with people I hadn't talked in what felt like forever! 

I'm so excited for Spring and Summer and just for this whole year in general! Great things are coming, I can feel it!